2019-06-30
630。邁向2019下半年
平日工作忙
有時甚至放工後晚上9時在超市買菜買肉
感覺是冷冷冰氺的
連最後收銀員收費也是以MPay
迅速快捷
零交流
周日早上雖熱
也想出外走走
想看多些人和事
大炮台的小道早上7:30已很熱鬧
有跑步的
有慢行的
有做運動的
有放狗的
有吹水的
也有早鳥的內地同胞旅客
在藍天陽光普照的早上
蟬聲輿風聲伴著清新的空氣
展開充滿正能量的一天
在小街漫步
原來早上非工作日的澳門
在非旅遊區是可以如此悠游
步往街市
更是熱鬧非常
在傳統街市
更顯人情味
買與賣的互動
很多賣者都是家族生意
父子檔
夫妻檔
也有老夫老妻
可能背後有很多很多故事
今天看見買魚的是一個年青兒子
幫助老父劏魚收錢
孝心
而買雞擋的夫婦
更使我驚喜
服務一流
在超市買冰鮮雞方便
但回家後要做不少功夫
但此次新嘗試
從來都未在此街市買雞
因為見很多人圍買
便試買一隻清遠雞
檔主兩夫婦沒停手
生意很忙
雖然要等
老板娘很仔細清潔及斬雞件
令我很有滿足感
因回家不用再花很多時間處理
這買雞的經驗與我在慣常的雞檔比較
真是很大分別
滿意
踏出家門
不做慣常的事
才可讓我
看及體會一些我圈子外的事
Wonderful day
債
遇到長輩
互道近況
方知他幫人的性格
又致他自己的養老金損失了一筆不少的金額
他為了幫舊同事處理高利貸的賭數
希望同事痛改前非
先後多次新數蓋舊數
代還睹債
不致影響家人及正常的工作
借款以每月攤還的形式繳回長輩
但那借款人只是60歲
卻突然急病
很快就不在人間
長輩的血汗錢因幫人而血本無鯞
金額竟達普通人的一年薪金之高
長軰苦惱
雖已與舊同事的太太及兒子商討
希望他們安排每月分期歸還欠款
借款原為港元
現不計利息
以澳門元歸還
至長輩百年歸老為止
但借錢的人不在
在生的人又無積極回應
真是人人都有自己煩惱
母親曾說
應盡量不借大金額的錢給朋友
借錢會沒朋友
小量能幫的
借出的就當送給別人
不要期望收回
互道近況
方知他幫人的性格
又致他自己的養老金損失了一筆不少的金額
他為了幫舊同事處理高利貸的賭數
希望同事痛改前非
先後多次新數蓋舊數
代還睹債
不致影響家人及正常的工作
借款以每月攤還的形式繳回長輩
但那借款人只是60歲
卻突然急病
很快就不在人間
長輩的血汗錢因幫人而血本無鯞
金額竟達普通人的一年薪金之高
長軰苦惱
雖已與舊同事的太太及兒子商討
希望他們安排每月分期歸還欠款
借款原為港元
現不計利息
以澳門元歸還
至長輩百年歸老為止
但借錢的人不在
在生的人又無積極回應
真是人人都有自己煩惱
母親曾說
應盡量不借大金額的錢給朋友
借錢會沒朋友
小量能幫的
借出的就當送給別人
不要期望收回
2019-06-29
2019-06-22
6.22 Open letter
Open Letter to the Chief Executive, Mrs. Carrie Lam
22 June 2019
The Honourable Carrie Lam Cheng Yuet-ngor, GBM, CBS
Chief Executive
Office of the Chief Executive
Hong Kong Special Administrative Region
People's Republic of China
Tamar
Hong Kong
I am writing to you as a friend and former colleague who, like you, has devoted my whole career to the civil service and the welfare of Hong Kong people.
I am not going to take time rehearsing, let alone allocating blame as to why Hong Kong finds itself in this crisis. As public servants, we all do our best for the people of Hong Kong, that is a given.
However, I now urge you and your advisors to fully acknowledge the gravity of the current situation and show yourselves worthy of the trust that has been placed in you.
I believe the following decisive steps are essential to defuse tension and restore lasting calm to our streets:
To stop juggling with semantics and state, categorically, that you are withdrawing the Fugitive Offenders and Mutual Legal Assistance in Criminal Matters Legislation (Amendment) Bill 2019; your refusal to do so only invites suspicion and fuels anger;
To establish a completely impartial Commission of Inquiry, chaired by a senior member of the Judiciary, into the circumstances of the disturbances on 12 June and the response of our police force. I believe this is vital, not just to acknowledge the deep concerns of the protesters and their families, but to restore the trust and respect of our community for a force that has maintained our safety and served us with courage and integrity for so many years. The officers in the front line should not be pilloried simply for following orders and doing what they believed was their duty to maintain law and order;
To consider offering a one-off amnesty to all involved in potentially criminal acts on 12 June: namely those who have been arrested and may be charged with riotous behaviour, those who may be charged at a later date and members of the police force who, while acting under orders, may be found to have used excessive force.
On the basis of these concessions, I believe you would be fully justified in expecting the community to refrain from further action that may lead to public disorder and disrupt the normal life of the city.
Anson Chan, GBM, GCMG, CBE, JP
Former Chief Secretary for Administration
Song - I wanna Grow Old with You (Westlife)
I Wanna Grow Old With You
Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
Things can come and go
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
I want to die lying in your arms
I want to grow old with you
I want to be looking in your eyes
I want to be there for you, sharing everything you do
I want to grow old with you
Song - Let me Go Home
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
2019-06-16
2019-06-15
2019-06-14
探望
昨天往香港探望我的姨姨
她是我小時候的好朋友
後來她結婚移居香港
致少聯系
她與母親兄弟姊妹的事
兒時時會聽到
家庭的定義對於年少時的他們很模糊
但外公是來自大家庭
人情冷暖
他們很少就知
外公外婆早離開
他們要各自幹活
回望母親大家姐的角色也不是易事
姨與母親都較親
但分隔兩地
各有各的家庭
並不可常照應
姨姨要幹多份工作
照顧小朋友
供書教學
大女最後完成碩士後更是專業人士
不託她的厚望
母親有事時
她亦抽時間探望母親
母親已走了20年
稍有漸疏遠的感覺
上次見面是父親的喪禮
一別又是兩年
趁有空往港
是她陪我過了一個下雨的下午
她告訴我每天下午在長者中心活動
很充實
亦有很多老友記
言談中憾事是姨丈早走
家中空巢
望著她的背影
步伐有如小孩初學步行不穩
她說是耳水不平所致
出外活動要小心及持拐扙
但她仍是我鬼馬的黃太后
在手袋拿東拿西
變出很多小禮物給我
又使我記起兒時她放假時帶我出外遊玩
吃東西的時光
祝福她
每天生活開開心心
身體健康
很想她多些陪我
她是我小時候的好朋友
後來她結婚移居香港
致少聯系
她與母親兄弟姊妹的事
兒時時會聽到
家庭的定義對於年少時的他們很模糊
但外公是來自大家庭
人情冷暖
他們很少就知
外公外婆早離開
他們要各自幹活
回望母親大家姐的角色也不是易事
姨與母親都較親
但分隔兩地
各有各的家庭
並不可常照應
姨姨要幹多份工作
照顧小朋友
供書教學
大女最後完成碩士後更是專業人士
不託她的厚望
母親有事時
她亦抽時間探望母親
母親已走了20年
稍有漸疏遠的感覺
上次見面是父親的喪禮
一別又是兩年
趁有空往港
是她陪我過了一個下雨的下午
她告訴我每天下午在長者中心活動
很充實
亦有很多老友記
言談中憾事是姨丈早走
家中空巢
望著她的背影
步伐有如小孩初學步行不穩
她說是耳水不平所致
出外活動要小心及持拐扙
但她仍是我鬼馬的黃太后
在手袋拿東拿西
變出很多小禮物給我
又使我記起兒時她放假時帶我出外遊玩
吃東西的時光
祝福她
每天生活開開心心
身體健康
很想她多些陪我
人生就像茶葉蛋, 有裂痕才入味 黃桐
生命的傷痕，讓人生入味
如果這個世界上有一台神奇機器，只要將大腦連接上它，你就可以實現自己所有夢想──無論你的夢想，是成為揮金如土的富豪、搖身變成掌管大權的總統，還是在千萬人面前表演的搖滾巨星，或只是想要與夢中情人相識相戀……
聽起來真棒，不是嗎？只不過，這些事情都不是發生於現實世界，而是藉助機器的力量，出現在你的夢中。而且，你不會有機會發覺自己在做作夢，因為你會一直沉睡著，永遠醒不過來。
這樣的人生很快樂，絕對完美無暇瑕。只是，這樣的人生，你想要嗎？
這是國外心理學家進行的一項真實試驗。他們找了近千位受訪者，謊稱已經發明了這樣的機器，並要他們做出是否要使用機器的決定。結果多數人不但拒絕了，而且還表示他們被這個主意嚇壞了！
這證實了一個道理：比起完美但虛假的人生，多數人嚮往的還是一個可能並不完美，卻真實的人生！
那麼，什麼才是「真實人生」？那就是酸甜苦辣多滋味，既有傷心的眼淚、疲憊的汗水，卻也同時擁有甘美的歡笑與甜蜜的愛！也正是因為如此，生命才會精彩，也才有它的意義。
或許，也可以這麼說，生命中的磨難，其實比一切稱心如意更具有價值。因為「成功的滋味都差不多，但失敗的滋味卻有千百種。所以成功不能讓人成長，失敗才能讓人成長」。這就好比煮茶葉蛋，外殼光潔的茶葉蛋看起來賞心悅目，但直到撥剝掉蛋殼，才會發現裡面一片慘白，嘗嚐起來也沒什麼味道；表面龜裂的茶葉蛋一點也不漂亮，甚至看起來有點悽慘，但直到撥剝開蛋殼，才會知道它色澤美麗，吃起來香醇，讓人回味無窮！
是的，苦難讓我們傷痕累累，但它也同時讓我們「入味」，得以成為一個更完整、更美好的人！
話雖這麼說，但我想每個人都會認同：苦難的滋味，的確不好，讓人難以忍受。那麼，這個世界上，是否有幫助我們度過熬過的「靈藥」？我想，答案是肯定的。
二○一○年九月，我的女兒出生了。
她兩個月大的時候，我第一次帶她外出拜訪外公外婆，返家時已經是晚上了。這個疲累的小傢伙，一開始在車上大哭大鬧，但不一會兒，她卻安靜了下來。她的眼睛綻放出光芒，嘴裡還發出「咯咯」的笑聲。
我仔細一看，原來，她是被車窗外的招牌霓虹燈吸引，而且樂在其中。
剎那間，我真是感動莫名。我真想告訴她，甚至想拜託她，要她千萬千萬要一輩子記住這種「單純的快樂」。
為閃爍的霓虹燈而快樂、為一頓飽飯而快樂、為家人的微笑而快樂、為溫暖的陽光而快樂、為一隻鳥的鳴唱而快樂……
不只我的小女兒，每個人都應該把「單純的快樂」放在心上。因為，無論我們正值哪個年齡層、遭逢了何種災難、受到哪種挫折的考驗；無論我們是傷感到心碎、憤怒到心痛、絕望到心死……這種「單純的快樂」，都可以成為一股強大厚實的力量，讓我們即使身處生命的幽谷，仍然能看到希望的曙光，並且永遠永遠不會忘記生命是多麼可貴、世界是多麼有趣。因此我們得以從苦難裡再度騰空而起，宛如浴火鳳凰一般，展露出更璀璨的光芒！
若現在的你人生一切順遂，我替你欣喜；若現在的你正飽受現實磨難，我替你祈禱。更請你相信，「天下沒有白受的苦」，人生中的種種考驗終會過去，如同落花一般化為春泥，孕育出加倍豐盛、美妙的生命！
祝福大家！
黃桐於台北
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